Last night was the first meeting of Focused Fellowship. It felt so good to finally have the opportunity, and audience, to share where I feel the Lord is leading me and where he wants to lead you too!
Frankly, I am approaching a limit with myself. It's like I'm teetering on the tip of the mountain and I want to tip over the edge but I'm scared to death! I know that once I do it there is no climbing back up the mountain to get back to the other side. As I told the girls last night, I want to walk through whatever desert might be in front of me and eat whatever the Lord provides as long as I can reach Canaan. John 10:10 says "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life and have it to the full." I know Pharaoh (Satan) was defeated and my chains were broken when I accepted Jesus as my savior, but now I want to step out of Egypt, out of all that is familiar, and trust the Lord for the next step, for the FULL.
I'm tired of struggling with infantile struggles. I'm tired of my focus being on momentary "hiccups" in my day. Sick of spending my allotted time on pursuing things of earthly value. I don't want to be trying to overcome the same bad habits or sin in my life a year from now or even a week from now! I don't want to wonder aimlessly for 40 years, wake up when I'm 70 and still not know what I'm doing! Can anyone relate?
So, we all have our little box that makes up who we are, right. Like our personality, our childhood, knowledge, heritage, church background, etc...... That is great in and of itself because we are all gloriously unique, but we tend to put a lid on all of that and think God is supposed to work in our little 6x6 box. Really? Do we really think we are so great that all of the things above are all that there is? God is infinite and unpredictable (predictable in character but he is unpredictable in his activity)! Think of our box as like the state of Oklahoma and his box as the UNIVERSE. We can't rely on the path we have paved to lead us to the abundant life. We have to lay down everything we have and know, and let him take it or change it if he so desires. We have to trust the manna (sweet-tasting bread) and the water to sustain us, not the endless buffet of food this world shoves in our face!
As you can tell, the analogy of the Israelites being freed from slavery (death) by Moses (Christ) is an exact picture of our story today. (Exodus 1) Yet here is the sad part. Out of almost 2 million Israelites that were freed from Egyptian slavery only 2 of them saw the promised land! Only 2 out of 2 million!
This should tell you how much it costs to follow Christ. It isn't easy like most of us have been told, but it is well worth the effort of trusting in the one who created us! We can be 100% saved and never see the Promised Land here on earth. I don't know about you but I want to step into the land flowing with milk and honey!
Your promised land will look different from mine. You will know you are there when you are in the middle of God's will. When your relationship with him is the priority of your life. When you are being sustained by Him and His word. We have all known or read about those people presently or in the past who have given up everything to follow where Christ is leading them. We think to ourselves how hard and sad that must be, and we dismiss the thought of ever being able to make the same tough decisions because we say God would never lead us there. We feel sorry for them that they have given up so much. But these people have a joy that we likely have never known! They would not choose to be anywhere else but in the middle of God's will! I feel like shoutin'! Amen!
(Not everyone's Promised Land will look so sacrificial from the outside but one encounter with these people and you know they are different in other amazing ways.)
So what do we right now? --Today. We start with being obedient to the things we know the Lord desires. For instance, we all know God's word is important. The Bible says that the Word of God, is LIFE. It will satisfy, it is flawless, it is a lamp unto our feet, it is sweet to our taste, ...... the Word is God. This would be the first place to start mapping out your journey.
Second to feasting on the word, I personally have been stuck on these verses found in Hebrews 12:1-2. ".....let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the JOY set before him endured the cross."
As a Christian I (we) tend to deal with the "ugly" things that are somewhat obvious sins to the church and world but we ignore the things that "hinder" us from running the race. This verse says to throw off these things and the New Living Translation uses the word distractions in place of the word hinders. This covers my busy-itis that I struggle with on a daily basis. I am praying that the Lord will help me toss the "distractions" and not look back or think twice.
I don't know about you but I don't think I can, nor do I want to, make this journey alone. I want Focused Fellowship to be a place where we push and challenge each other to keep taking the next step. Where we dig for meat in God's word and leave the milk for the infants!
In Christ,
Tanda