Tuesday Mornings

For a little over a year now I have been going to a Bible study hosted by a friend of mine. Every Tuesday I have the thought, "Now why am I doing this again?" That question usually comes to mind while my 1 year old is screaming his head off because that is just what my 1 year old does, or by my 2 year old pooping in her panties (again), or kids falling off of beds, or getting into a candy dish on top of the table, or biting, pinching, spitting,....... you get it. This Tuesday was no exception. Between 8 of us we have 13 or 14 kids under the age of 5 and 2 more on the way. It is chaotic to say the least. BUT, God is so faithful to our commitment to this group and somehow He is able to speak to and through us over the messes and interruptions and screaming. Our current study has been deep and challenging, forcing us to take a look at what is on the inside- the areas that may be acceptable to the world but are not acceptable to God. Obedience was this week's topic and we ended up, like so many weeks, talking about our relationships with our husbands. Personality differences, quirks, hurtful behavior, you name it. It is an amazing thing to share commonalities, to know that you are not the only one who experiences these feelings and emotions that we all struggle with. I felt like we came to a great conclusion. One that was lead by God. It would have been so easy to talk about how awful we all have it and wine and complain or encourage retaliation, but we decided we would all set aside the next week to show our husbands how much we appreciate all the positive things about their personalities and roles in our lives. We realized that most of the things we have problems with now are the things we fell in love with in the beginning. Love is very strange isn't it? To give someone what we think they deserve changes absolutely nothing. But to treat someone how they don't deserve will at least change us and then half the problem is solved. : )

Grandpa

I wrote the previous blog a few days ago, before my grandfather passed away in his sleep on Wednesday night. What a way to go! In his home, after one of the most gorgeous spring days where he got to go out and drive his tractor one last time!

I know the mourning and tears are a part of what we experience here on earth. I had my break-down. But, as it was with the passing of my other grandparents a few years ago, I cannot help but feel an overflowing joy deep in my soul that they are all finally with their maker, their savior, and free of pain and heartache. It just brings a smile to my face. I love you grandpa and will see you again!

Why A Blog?

The Lord is my strength
and my song; he has become
my salvation. Psa 118:14


After a lot of thought, worry, prayer, worry, and thought I’ve decided to start a blog. I love learning from other women’s experiences, laughing at their child-rearing mishaps, or getting new great recipes so...... I thought I could pass some of the same along.
The reason for so much prayer, thought and worry and the reason to start the blog are the same. F-E-A-R. For as long as I can remember I have been dictated by fear. Fear of what other people may think or say about me, fear of failure, and any other fear you can think of at some point in my life. As early as I can remember I have always been easily embarrassed and easily wounded. I’m slowly learning and growing into my own skin, finding out that through Christ I can conquer those fears and be content with just plain me. Soooo back to the blog. I guess my goal is to share who I am and how I am seeking to grow each day as a Christ-follower, wife, mother, and friend. I promise it won’t be all serious business and deep-hearted confessions all the time. So stay tuned!